Crossing's Redemption by Carrie Daws

Author:Carrie Daws [Daws, Carrie]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Fiction
Publisher: Ambassador International
Published: 2013-08-15T04:00:00+00:00

The following Wednesday, Amber sat in her favorite oversized chair at Peter’s parents’ house. She and his mom, Faye, had enjoyed lunch, during which Daniel had fallen asleep. Instead of disturbing him, she’d simply grabbed a book and settled in to read while Faye took care of some chores.

As she read, she came to a line that made her laugh. Realizing someone was walking by, she looked up a little self-consciously. Faye stood before her, smiling and holding an overflowing basket of clean towels.

“Good book?” said Faye.

“It’s one of the books we got from our Redemption Group,” said Amber. “It’s called Rid of My Disgrace.”

Faye placed the basket on the couch. She pulled out a towel from the pile and began folding.

Amber continued. “I was just reading about identity, how we often identify ourselves within the boundaries of what has happened to us instead of who we really are. The authors quoted Lewis Smedes, who was a seminary professor. He said, “What I need is a sense that God accepts me, owns me, holds me, affirms me, and will never let me go even if he is not too impressed with what he has on his hands.”

Faye laughed. “That is quite a statement.” Faye shook her head as she muttered to herself, “‘Not too impressed with what he has on his hands.’ Ain’t that the truth.”

Amber reached over to pick a towel from the basket. She sat quietly for a moment as she folded it, finally deciding to be brave and ask the question on her mind. “Have you ever struggled with your identity?”

“Oh, sure. I’d be willing to bet everyone does at some point in their lives. Probably more than once.” Faye stopped in the middle of folding, hugging the towel in her hands as she looked into the distance. “I remember struggling a lot after the kids were born. Logan was quite an interruption into our lives at first, and I couldn’t figure out how to be both a wife and a mother. I still loved Frank very much, but that child flat refused to stay on any kind of schedule. He always had to do things his way, and it seemed like I was always exhausted trying to keep up.”

Faye began folding the towel in her arms again. “And Jamie coming along just barely two years later. I felt like I was just beginning to really figure things out, balance things between my husband and my child, and then I had to start all over again, figuring out how it all worked with a second child in the picture. I knew I was a wife, and I knew I was a mother, but I wasn’t sure how to be both and whether that meant I lost me in the process.”

“I remember one time,” said Amber, “I was working as a waitress in a small diner, and this other waitress and I were talking. She told me that I had to love myself before I could love other people.

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